Big Break And Self Sabotage.

Humans are far more afraid of fulfilling their wildest dreams than failing. Here is my story of a Big Break and Self Sabotage.

July 1: 

I was offered a Big Break, an amazing opportunity, everything I have asked for.

July 2: 

I planned to start working toward it.

July 3: 

I immediately jumped into a completely new project that has nothing to do with goal #1 and is very far from being finished.

July 25: 

Still nothing done for opportunity#1. 

Lots of time wasted on a project #2.

I worked so hard towards project #1, and I betrayed my goals the second it became a reality.

WTF, Mayya, can we at least acknowledge what is happening?

Advice?